Have you ever walked around not knowing which emotion is going to come out? That has been us the last day and a half. This will not be a long post, mainly there is not a lot to say nor do I know the words to write something profound, motivational, inspirational, etc.
Anger
Frustration
Confusion
Love
Sadness
Peace
Happiness
Hurt
Grief
We heard back from DHR this week and was notified that the child we had been matched with had been place in a new foster home. This foster family plans on adopting the child.
We know that God is in control of the situation, We know that he has a plan. We also have a lot of unanswered questions. My brain is pretty much mush at this point. We are thankful that our prayers were answered that if this child could not be with us they would be in a good place and the transition would be smooth. It sounds like it was. So we praise our Lord for that.
It is a strange feeling. I feel like we are grieving another child we didn't get to meet. This time is a little different, we had a picture of this child, we knew the back ground of this child, we had a room ready for this child to help us decorate and make their own. While this child was never ours there will always be a place in my heart that will be dedicated to this child.
We will regroup, pray about it and evaluate what our next steps should be and where we should be looking. I do not think that God is done with our journey. We will continue to pray for God's guidance in our journey. We are thankful that all of you are on this journey with us. The prayers you send up on our behalf are comforting. Your messages, hugs, and understanding helps to keep us moving.
